One day I awoke to find I felt empty and unsure of who I was. It was as if a light turned off inside me and I felt very dark. I do believe there was a storm within me threating to blow out my light for years but I found ways to block it by building false walls. The whirlwind within me was the submissive me wanting out. Wanting to not remain hidden but I did not know this. I only knew I was not happy and things felt fake to me. I walked the earth doing what was expected of me but not feeling fulfilled. Then one day I read a book that struck a match within me trying to reignite my light. I felt moved and more alive. The book, though fiction, felt more real than my real life. I began to do some research and came upon a site. The SafeworD/s Club. It took me a couple of days to register as I was very hesitant. This is where my life changed and all for the better. I first met Missy one of the owners and then I get a welcome message. A Hi and a short description of the person who said Hi and the site. It was, who I know now as, Master James.
He asked me questions and then we parted ways thinking we might never chat again. But I asked a question that brought him back to me, as he responded to it. Again, we chatted for a bit and parted ways. A couple of days later he checked in with me and we just felt comfortable with one another. We shared so much about our lives and our families. It was as if we had been friends for years and not days. Master James helped me understand things I had not. Helped me to feel comfortable in asking questions and chatting more. I was very shy at the time and he would encourage me to join chats and message others to learn more. It was in messaging others that led me to a mistake that in turn led me to my happiness. I chose another Dom to become my Dominant. In doing so, Master James realized he felt something for me and wanted me for himself. Things with the other Dom never really got off and we were ill matched. When it ended, I accepted a contract with Master James. I, at the time, thought it would be a short term contract but it has now been over a year and I pray we can continue for a long time to come.
I think it is when we are not looking that we find the greatest of matches. It wasn’t forced but grew from an unexpected friendship. A darkness led to a book, which led to a site, which led to a friendship, which led to me finding my Master. I am grateful to The SafeworD/s Club and to all the members within it. We are a small but close-knit community. We promote respect and acceptance. Our chats are a safe place to ask questions and hear experiences from other members. We are not there to say what is the right way to be but to each share our way of being. This is where my story began and I was able to find my true self. It is a place where I feel most alive and I am so very thankful for it all…
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